oh you know
it was a good monday today & im feeling much better

times where i feel like okay, perhaps everything will turn out okay afterall.
but you know once in a while emotions hit, negative thoughts hit. and doubts creep in.

this week, i pray for the strength and resilience to stand against the devil. to stand against these emotions, thoughts, doubts.

to learn, as ive learnt from passion and purity, to direct my waiting, my desires towards God instead. to learn to control and surrender these desires instead of acting upon them.

oh, life is tough indeed.
growing up is tough.
its fun & exciting when things are going reasonably well.
it becomes harder when things are not going as well, when you feel lost, uncertain.
oh how ive failed to see sometimes from the perspective of others, too quick to think a certain way, how we let circumstances define us too much perhaps.
perhaps... im just lost.
well, we all learn