Saturday, January 11, 2014

Centre down

I realised how the environment/culture can really change someone. Reflecting back on Korea really made me realise how conducive Australia is/was for me to grow in God and learn more about what it meant to have a God-centred life. Being here, it's really fun and I love the food & shopping & liveliness. But In the midst of cosmetics, makeup, fashion, drinking, having fun, dating, it makes me wonder where God is in all this.. 

It makes me think about myself and how my thoughts can be so preoccupied with things that are of secondary importance, but the world tells you it is of utmost importance. And it scares me to think of how I could be like in a few years time, will I be caught up in the Singaporean mindset, rather then the God mindset? Will I be willing to be different, to not fit in, if that is what God is calling me to? 

Where consumerism is so rampant, where the concept of 'I' is so important, how I feel, what I want, my happiness, I feel like an oddball In wanting to pursue God and His holiness

Yet it is only by His grace that I am where I am today. I'm thankful that Australia had taught me to slow down, to quiet down, and to centre down on Him. To think, reflect, meditate, away from the noises of this world. I'm thankful for friends that encourage me and push me towards God, friends that journey alongside me so I don't feel so alone. Friends that inspire me to model after them. Thankful for the opportunity he has given, for me to see things in a different light 

And what happened to helping the less fortunate, of giving up a comfortable lifestyle to contribute to the needy? To spending time with god everyday and falling in love with him more and more each day. What happened? 

Please don't let go of me God, for tonight I am humbled by Your revelation to me about the condition of my heart, and how easily I am swayed. I do like it here, I do. I even told myself I want to come back again, which I may. But tonight, something just hit me.. 

Stand firm on the truth of God. To be in the world but not of the world, it's tough, very tough. To only have one master. You can only love either god or money. To have no other idols before Him. 

Let's not be defined by culture but by our identity in Christ

Reminders that I need to hear, I do. I miss those conversations. 

Will talk about Korea some other time! It has been great, nonetheless.

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