http://www.desiringgod.org/blog/posts/the-value-of-knowing-how-god-saved-you - one of my biggest struggle. not that i dont think that its all God's work, i dont think believing in something that is done is any work at all. i do think God has played a huge, tremendous part in me being able to accept Him but then again i struggle with the opposite. for those whom God did not "choose". do humans play a part at all? what is human's responsbility? could it be both? is Christianity a passive thing? or is God at work but we do are responsible? for eg when we struggle with sin, God helps us deal with it, but that doesnt mean we dont struggle with sin too. isnt it?

): these things really trouble me sometimes, and sometimes i need a break and a time to just enjoy the presence of God. Could intellectual godly talk actually be a stumbling block?

anyhow, lets let that go for now.
Im learning how to appreciate life for what it is instead of hanging on to things that perhaps, are not as important(: being someone who hoards like no one's business i think its important for me to look beyond physical things, look beyond the surface to the actual living itself.
 http://www.allisonvesterfelt.com/blog/sentimental-attachment

ive also learnt how its so easy for one to twist one's words to make things sound nicer. most people do it, even I myself. ): sometimes people can be so pretentious. not intentionally, but subconsciously, we make things sound better or make ourselves sound better.

first week of placement was refreshing and eyeopening and im really thankful to be able to see what community health is about! something i'll never get in my little country back home. 4 more weeks to go:)

9 more weeks of placement + thesis (need to do sth about this) + 1 week lecture + exam = end of my undergrad!

admin stuff to clear to get home are things like selling the car + packing up + shipping + selling stuff + plan dates for family travel + dates to go home + employment stuff

it seems overwhelming at times but i think we just need to tackle this step by step I guess! sometimes you just cant wait to start a new phase but i need to remember to enjoy the grand finale first!

have a great weekend x