my week has been a whiz. catching up with precious people, date with daddy, baking for my grandmother, and nursing a headcold. indeed grateful for this opportunity to come home! when i went to NUS, there were so many graduates around me that were so familiar, yet not. once again one of man's biggest flaws to compare, to think of the what ifs. its bound to have been different, the course, the friendships, the environment. i fell, for a moment, thinking of what i was missing out on, but i paused for a moment and thought about what i have learnt, how i have grown through the four years experience and I reminded myself, to be thankful. afterall, half a year more and ill be home. there are always things we can see that could be better on the other side, like the common cliche, the grass is greener on the other side, but to each her own path, her own journey, we learn and we grow on ours.

but i also realised that one's connection to home cannot be cut. no matter how we "seek a better life" out there, home will always be home. very few who have migrated will call themselves belonging to that country, where their parents are, where their friends are, where they grew up, will still be a place close to their hearts. You can just leave and cut ties forever, there will always be some sort of a connection. but few generations down, yes, the connections will be cut.

went out with daddy too to gardens by the bay (: the domes were quite nice to take a quiet stroll! i guess in the past months ive been pondering on my parents way of love, perhaps what ive overlooked is that when their way of loving, of supporting, doesnt seem to be obvious enough for me, or doesnt seem to be in a way that i receive it. but deep in my heart, i know that they do love and support me. of course, im still hoping and praying that one day they will give the green light, but till then, i guess all i can do is wait(:

i hope i can live the simple life, to block out the noise of society and focus on whats important, but along the way, i hope to remind myself often to not be self-righteous, for i see it out there too often. we think we're right. we demand our rights, we expect things of others, we think the world revolves around us, but no.. there is a much bigger picture than that...