this little space of mine has been so neglected. ): I've been so busy

I'm reading a book now which is entitled "the life you've always wanted". Its about spiritual disciplines and one thing that struck me is that spiritual disciplines are not an end but a means to an end. It isnt about doing quiet time 365 out of 365 days a year, but that these moments enable us to love God and love people better.

It speaks about having joy, a divine joy, an everlasting joy. It speaks about living an unhurried life, slowing down and living an unhurried life. A hurried life makes one more prone to impatience and anger, and thats the kind of life I am living right now. Easily angered and impatient. I have been really really busy, trying desperately to find pockets of time to do what is needed, trying to drop whatever can be dropped.

I enjoyed the wedding process.. up till it got to the nitty gritty. Seating arrangements, guest lists, every single signage that has to go up at every little corner, every tune that has to be played. Now, all I want is to be married.

When I am married I will need to continue to learn to say no to things, my plate is full and busy does not mean I am more productive. It is ironic that our spiritual lives reflect the corporate world, there is almost a 'spiritual corporate ladder' whether in the way we fast/pray/serve in ministries. Anyhow I need to learn to take a step back to protect this marriage, and eventually my children.