its november. im saying yes to a lot of things that i dont know if i can cope with, & im wondering why i never had such issues in Australia. do Singaporeans like creating things so we can keep ourselves busy? to fill our lives with programs so we feel productive? or is it just a wider social circle & network? i have no answer.

but anyway, these things are in the future, and i have the next two months to kind of figure things out.

have started listening to some podcasts on this new app i downloaded - thanks to cc(: and i listened to something that has made me feel more at ease of my role as a female. ive always felt unsure about my role as a female in the workplace, in the church. ive no issues with submission, which perhaps makes me wonder how i can serve without being too dominating/domineering, and how i can best utilise the gifts God has given to me within the right boundaries. im glad that i no longer have doubts about working - and that being a stayhome mum does not make one godlier/more in line with God's will. but that brings its own set of questions i suppose - questions that will not be answered until a few years later.

anyway, God is good and the quietness at 0540 has been comforting. its going to be a stressful week but after this - things will be less busy i hope! trying not to schedule too many gatherings because i need my rest - age is catching up with me! haha can't believe im turning 25 next year - dont know if im ready for that. but i got through 2014! not just got through but it has been a good year(:

monday blues (just like every typical sunday night) but here's a song which i really like:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fYUI4knoyHE