netball

in my little space here there are times i want to rant. today the topic is on netball. why is it my passes do not go in the direction i wish for it go, at speed at which i want it to go. why is it i am always either 1 second early or 1 second late. why is it that i cant jump that 3cm higher. why is it even bothering me that i cant play netball as well as i want to, when three years ago i would never have thought that i could even manage a ball game. but one that a friend said to me always sticks - a team game is always a team game, no matter how well or badly you played as an individual - a team game is about a team working together and not about you. there is no such thing as i played badly today and i let the team down, because we play as a team. and we've got each other's backs. so thank you, thank you for giving me the opportunity to be part of a team, and thank you for allowing me to learn what it means to be a team player. when all my life - its pretty much an individual sport. i would defend track and cross as team events - but its still different. today, i miss days when sport was part of my everyday life. but today, i also give thanks that sports was part of my everyday life, and that even in australia i had the opportunity to try something new. 

today i aim (aimed) to be in bed at 930 and finish off with a good korean drama and fall asleep at 1030. for that to happen i need to get off my chair and go and shower. but looking at the time now - 9.08pm, im not going to make it in time. sigh pie! so i need to stop letting these thoughts run wild in my head but to get back to what i need to do. BUT THANK GOD TOMORROW IS FRIDAY AND I HAVE NO NEW PATIENTS. but it also means its week 2... and 5 weeks to the end of my university life (5 weeks to finish up what ive left to complete - placement, thesis, exam) on top of holidays and moving home and selling my car/furniture. pretty sure ive said this before so i should actually stop repeating myself. but you see the dilenma in my head. enough rambling.. goodnight! enjoy friday and the weekend x