tonight i retreat to this little space for a little rant.
there are days like these when i feel like ive made a lot of mistakes, and ive not been good in the way ive handled my friendships. tonight is one of them. i know friendships change as we grow older but some days that is easier to accept than others. sometimes having an avenue for instant communication simply doesnt help.
yesterday i was reminded that God is the God of my finances, and today - God is the God of my friendships. why is it so hard to trust sometimes?
and days like these when i feel unimportant, invisible, alone - it also reveals my heart and need to be loved, to be noticed, to be recognised. my own prideful, selfish heart that seeks attention. when i look at my own happy photos (not even other people's), i just feel a sense of.. detachment from them. how strange.
its really probably just a whole bundle of emotions. which really, ought to be directed back to God.. also, i really hope to bake this week.
goodnight xx
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