my holidays

read this article http://www.relevantmagazine.com/god/perks-solitude on being alone, i enjoy being alone, i think that was a luxury that i go to enjoy when i was in cairns, without the distractions of a social life, i had a lot of time to think, to relax, to pray, to just be on my own. and although i wasted part of it with my struggle with b, but mostly, i enjoyed it.

coming back to bris, i started meeting up with people, sharing and listening heaps. and for that, i was grateful, i was grateful for the people that i have met this year in my final year in bris, i am thankful for each individual God has sent my way this year (: for this year has brought many surprises that surpassed my imagination. the simple fact that i had a list (small but sincere) of people to meet and catch up with showed me that i have a community in brissy, at last. people that i could share my heart with, people who i genuinely loved and cared about, kindred friendships, as we say in cefc. but along with the many people that i started meeting, i had less time for myself, less time to spend with God. or when i was in my comfortable room, all i wanted was to snuggle up in bed, and just laze around.

sometimes i think its hard to juggle spending time connecting with God and a social life, and the many things that we can do in life! there's only 24 hours, prioritising is of utmost importance. i need to learn to prioritise, i need to learn to be quiet before God, and i need to learn to listen - listen to God, and listen to my friends. sometimes its so easy to want to share with people what you've learnt, what God has been doing in your life that i forget to listen. so this is something i hope to grow in! learning to listen, and to prioritise, and to pack my stuff! (ive started but its neverending)

and i turned 23! thankful fr the three girls that kindly went with me to the sunshine coast!(: i enjoyed myself thoroughly and it was a good getaway to just relax, have fun and just have a holiday! we actually did a lot of things, shall post photos next time!

and im going home tomorrow!! im really excited! a lot of people ask why im so excited to go back to singapore when most people want to spend more time in bris since its our last year. thats what i wanted to do originally too, but the opportunity came up to go home and i jumped at it. i think when i was in cairns, i got a bit sick of australia. yes, i enjoy the travelling, the quiet life, the independence, the fact that i can cook/bake etc, but its still not home. and after 3.5 years in australia, i can almost say .. ive had enough. its simply not home, as much as i enjoy the slower/quieter life here, i dont think im that stressed or that much faster paced in singapore, i believe that we dont have to let society dictate the way we live, although there will be some influence of course. and singapore is still home afterall. i will miss australia, but, it will definitely be good to be home at the end of the year xx