last day in cairns!

So its my last day here in cairns, ive had a great great time and ive learnt so much, in fact, it doesn’t even feel like a placement at all! Ive learnt what it means to make a difference in a patient's life, to think for them and want the best for them and not just excelling in my work and what I do. Ive learnt that I need to rely on God EVERY SINGLE DAY in order to get through it, even though we might get through life on our own, but with God, everything is heaps better. when God leads, when i stop trying to take control, when i stop trying to be on top of everything, when i learn to be contented about my life, i learn to appreciate this one life that God has given to me on earth.

Ive learnt to deal with people who put me down, people who sideline me, people who annoy me with their comments, basically people who i find, difficult to deal with. ive learnt though to love people who are different to me, or harder to love, a bit more, not that im already there, but i think, God has taught me how to see things from His perspective a bit more, how to not take everything to heart as much as before, but to let things go when i ought to. Ive also done lots of fun stuff like horse riding, white water rafting, diving, road trips, shopping, basically its been an amazing time.  Ive come to appreciate nature more, to appreciate this world created by God even more, and be very thankful for all the little moments that ive had. yes, we are called not to love the world for the world is full of sinful things, but God's creation and God's splendor through His creation is truly a sight to behold.. 

Ive also got spat at by someone drunk/racist? shouted at by girls in a car, words that i can make out clearly and words that are clearly racist. Which made me really sad initially but ive gotten over it pretty quickly.  Im thankful that ive seen that the world is a sad and ugly place, but God's love and grace covers all, that His love enables me to forgive, enables me to look beyond what I see and what I should feel, to see the way jesus feels. I know someone who lets the little things affect her/stay with her for long periods makes me think hey, why make such a big fuss over everything, make your life and life for other people more difficult as well? Do people sometime take pride in being "fussy" or "OCD", i find that this "ocd" things is highly overused at this stage, everyone has their pet peeves, but we seem to be blowing it up a little hey? but anyway, there are many different kinds of people in this world, in all different shapes and sizes, but God created us all. Its also thanks to pb who has taught me how to let go of things and not cling onto everything with a fierce vengence, letting everything affect my life more than it should. 

Yes, I might not like cairns enough to stay here for any longer, but, it has definitely given me a life changing experience over the last 5 weeks. Cairns is also where ive realised, how brisbane has become a second home to me, and how there are people that matter to me back home in bris, where I miss them and cant wait to see them tmr! Xoxo love you all! 

wanted to add photos but im too lazy. will add some other time x