bangkok was great. the food, the shopping, the company. i wouldnt say i fell in love with the place but i was thankful for the opportunity to travel with friends. in doing so i discovered more about myself and those around me.

in coming back, reality hit. i was and am dreading tomorrow. why do things clash so often, i wonder. it will be a great relief when i get to the end of tomorrow. we had a huge massive quarrel but im glad it ended well - meaning, we spoke about it and talked about how we honestly felt. and how we are going to change/work things out. Sometimes it is scary, that despite the fact that we are going head on towards marriage - that there are still quarrels like these. but thats life and nothing's perfect, even after marriage i can imagine heated quarrels. in the context of marriage it is sometimes worse because you can no longer ask - are we going to make it? or is he really the one? or are we meant to be? but thats also the beauty of commitment - the space to be real and to love and know that no matter what, we will be 'stuck' together. without God i wonder where we would be. things can get so fiery sometimes with the people whom we feel the most comfortable with.

but im thankful for the opportunity to spend time with my grandmother, to take her to run errands that she needs to run. to have dinner with her and to have the food that she is so proud of. i know our time on this side of heaven is running out and i have to make the most of it.

i also got an A for my first module at bible college, thank You for encouraging me in ways like these.