2015 feels tougher than 2014. perhaps in 2014, there is a sense of newness. lots of change, and lots to adapt to. 2015 feels like I’ve gotta trudge along and manage. and the list of things to think about just never seems to end.. will we ever be ready for adulthood or starting our own families?

when you are a child, you worry about results, competitions and which school you can get into. but in general life is pretty carefree. when you get into adulthood then the pressures to have a career, a marriage, a family all piles onto you. then when you get to the point where you can being a grandparent then it starts to fade away again doesnt it? like being a grandparent is not as stressful as being a parent, and whatever life has turned out to be, has been. all you have to do now is to enjoy the rest of it and wait for eternity.

people seldom understand your perspective fully.. when its you, they might have a certain set of comments. but then when the same thing happens to them, all of a sudden its okay. because sometimes its not as straightforward as it seems - when emotions, thoughts, circumstances get in the way.

sometimes, you just get so sick of what you see online.. and you decide enough is enough.

please protect my dear heart..

a morning run, some quiet time, a hearty meal, a good massage, a sweet high tea, some quick shopping, a family dinner, quiet walks, gentle tears. sums up a good day of leave and time spent with j (:

thank you for tolerating all my emotions & hormones, i can be very short tempered/impatient at times especially in the past few weeks and you get the most of it.. to pray more, to jump less. and before you know it the year will be over. that scares me..but such is life.

goodnight world xx

weekends

It's always hard to get back to work after a good weekend.. ): I had such a good time though! I always told myself not to become a weekday/weekend person but it's tough..

anyway, this weekend was spent mostly with j and either family and dinner on sat with some friends. For some reason, I felt like we spent more 'quality time' together this weekend instead of just doing things tog. We were able to reconnect and talk about a lot or things after a week of being away.. although it's only a week - it can be a lot because that meant we didn't get to spend Sunday together - which we usually spend at j's house! although it did mean I could spend time with my precious girlfriends last weekend(:

anyhow, I also baked pineapple tarts with j's mum! really thankful for the time we spent together - for all the conversations and all she shared with me. Although it can be slightly draining, as making a new friend would be, I'm thankful that we can have such a friendship and be able to spend time tog(:

alright, it's time to go to work..