saturdate! happy three (:

we discovered a new quaint place that we both really liked today (; in sentosa! havent been to sentosa in a really really long time. the last i remembered was sw's comms ball haha that was like 5? years ago??  its touristy, but not as crowded as i thought it would be. especially before 1pm(:

lunch at tablescape! 

our mocktail called Cinderella! (: 

 yumyum (: it was a quiet, fine lunch which we enjoyed in peace. bread as starters; salad/soup for appetizer; his beef/my barrumundi; and ice cream for dessert ^^ we were both very satisfied after that!


we (especially j) really liked the feel/ambience of the place - he kept raving about it and how he really wanted to come back and stay here in the future! if we can - after we get married in the far future haha

we headed to underwaterworld after - and enjoyed a show put up by these pink dolphins & sea lions!

 i love watching dolphins jump and leap - there's something so elegant and beautiful about them, i could watch them the whole day

i also really like these underwater tunnels(: of course this was much older as compared to the newer sea aquarium, but it was still an afternoon well spent just taking some time off our busy lives to spend time with each other. im glad we made this agreement to spend at least once a month to do something more special rather than the usual routine. to be honest, its only three months but we have definitely settled into our own routine already! most of the time - if we are able to meet on weekdays its dinner at my place. weekends is spend running errands/attending events/gatherings together, church and then dinner with each other's family. so i appreciate the times when we are able to just put aside everything else and just be with each other. and i hope we dont stop doing that!

taking touristy shots with the merlion! just like two months ago when we took a photo with the merlion in front of fullerton. 

was also just talking to the brother about results and about progressions with j and it just makes me think about how our society can be so performance driven. even when its not the paper chase, grades, we still look at performance in some way or another. i guess society needs to have a benchmark somehow? but still, is it not tiring to always be trying to meet a certain expectation thats placed on us artificially? by another human being? im glad our God is not a performance based God but one who provides the way back to Him despite our rebellion & failures. and in that, we can trust, we can be secure, we can hide under His wings. 

alright, going to attempt to run a 10km tomorrow. my aim is to finish it without walking. (: 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hos-YWNghHQ

how do you know what is your calling??

"The way to find your calling is to look at the way you were created. Your gifts have not emerged by accident" - Tim Keller

In an asian culture, sometimes its hard to identify our gifts. We shy away from acknowledging what we are good at, afraid of being seemed as arrogant, and not being able to live up to expectations after. But God does create us with gifts - and I guess we should learn to embrace these gifts and acknowledge them and use them to serve His Kingdom and to serve His people. but to remember that failure does not mean that we are not gifted anymore, having a gift in a particular area does not mean that we are perfect, we are human afterall.. 

my grandma randomly asked about our housing plans in the future after we get married. haha it was quite funny but sorry not yet! 

I've been learning and reflecting on the concept of Sabbath and rest. (in my not so well state). The sabbath is something God commanded. seems strange isnt it? Why does he need to order us to rest when we always say we want to rest, we are tired, but yet we struggle to set aside time to truly rest. such an irony! but rest is part of God's perfect intentions and plans for us as mankind - so I am going to learn to obey & rest.  

sometimes a person's comment can really linger in my mind and affect me more than it should.
sometimes the inner battles within me can really drain me.
sometimes being with people too much can really drain me. although i get really recharged by one on one, deep & personal conversations.

to let go of the need to prove myself, to let go of the need to have to be accepted by everyone, to let go of all these sinful nature in me.

"Out of the heart of man, come evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, coveting, wickedness, deceit, sensuality, envy, slander, pride, foolishness. All these evil things come from within, and they defile a person."

there is too much wickedness in this world, and we have accepted them as part of our nature and our society - that we dont even recognise them anymore. that scares me. O Lord, purify my heart and make me clean, keep me in your righteousness.

Lord in praying for the matter about my future slightly more in recent days, it has revealed a lot of fears in my heart. the fear of failure, of people's judgement, of not being able to fulfil my own expectations. of not being able to make it or take the stress/toughness of it.of not coping. fears that I did not know existed.

i used to want a wedding with lots of people at a really nice hotel. but after attending a few weddings, i think perhaps a cosy one would do ^^

im so tired, but thank you lord for a weekend to look forward to this week - quietness with you, me and my favourite boy. i know you will bring me through this week (:

today as i sat in that new testament class it dawned on me that these archaeological pieces exist in this world. that out there there are scraps of paper (papyrus) that originated from the 2nd century thousands of years ago and is part of history. that all this is real. perhaps one day i will be able to visit Israel and visit these places that are mentioned in the bible or visit one of these museums with these cool antiques.

Places I hope to go to one day (if i can) include
1. Maldives (for my honeymoon!)
2. Israel
3. Japan
4. Climb some mountain somewhere
5. Go back to korea

but for me travelling is a luxury and not a need and at this point in time, luxury is not something I can afford too often. I'm supposed to do something productive but I can't get myself to do productive things at night. its terrible ):

this on/off thoughts at the back of my mind about my future also haunts me at times. its tiring to have these thoughts running in my head - but yet i know that God has my future in control and He will open the right doors in the right time. for now - i need to focus on being the best physio i can be for my patients

alright, cant be productive but after sunday's mentoring session about protecting our sabbath. i have decided to protect my daily sabbath time with God and protect it fiercely - may it be a non negotiable!

goodnight world. may we seek the things that are above, where Christ is, this very day.

Happy physiotherapy day!

Today is the day, where physios all over the world are celebrated! hurray. passion makes all the difference - as all the seniors have said.

growing up, a major practical concern is how to manage our finances. as much as i would like to trust God, I can't help but worry about how we are going to afford the many things needed in the future. relooking our past investments/expenditures and thinking of the next step ahead. yes we make mistakes in our youth but hey we are still young and we learn from such experiences. thats what life is all about isnt it! as much as its stressful, its also exciting that we are now managing "adult" issues now and having to make bigger life decisions. at the end of the day we can also rest fully, that the biggest and most important life decision has already been made; and then ultimately we have the highest hope, and have nothing really to lose on this earth.

finally feeling the effects of my night duty - so goodnight world! ill see you in dreamland